You Tell Me

So, I was reading Time Magazine has a list of the top 100 songs of the modern era and it got me thinking. Since I am still waiting on the health answer, I thought it would be fun to see if there is anyone out there in the web... What songs are your fav? On the Time Magazine list, there is only one song per famous artist to give other people a chance. Music is such a release for me, I have many favs from many artists, but thought I would put together some lists for the hell of it. So name your two fav songs for the following artists:

Madonna:
1. Like A Prayer- I absolutely love this song, reminds me of Summer and jumping on my trampoline while on summer break plus I think she sounds great on the song. The gospel choir at the end of the song just makes it perfection.
2. Crazy For You- Strangers making the most of the dark....... such a great song. It was a hard choice because I love many Madonna songs, but this one barely beat out "Rain" which I love as well. Im Crazy for this song.

Michael Jackson:
1. Human Nature- I could cliche and choose Billie Jean which I also like, but Human Nature is so intimate and I love it when he says "she likes the way I stare". I had never heard anything like this song and I remember playing it over and over and it is still one of the most played songs on my iPod.
2. Man in the Mirror- If anyone ever doubts Michael Jackson's vocal ability, just listen to this song. Haunting vocals where you can here his desperate plea to make the world a better place. As for dance songs, my favorite is "Smooth Criminal", I dont understand what he is saying, but I dance like crazy everytime I hear it.

Elvis:
1. Suspicious Minds: I think Elvis is one of the best singers in history and he was way before my time, and it isnt just because I grew up in the Memphis area, I love this man's voice and this song is so catchy and it really shows off his ability to tell a story with his voice. When he slows it down at the end, you can really hear his emotions and not just singing. He is caught in a trap for sure.
2. In the Ghetto: This song had to be controversial for its time. It is really hard to imagine that before his time, there was no music that sounded like this from a white guy who had this much soul. Great song! Very close second is "Crying in the Chapel", where humble people go to pray. I love that his voice is higher than normal in that song, really shows his range.

To be continued, since it was so much fun! Tell me your favs!!

A Calm Feeling

I dont know why I feel better typing my inner thoughts to complete strangers rather than talking to my closest family and friends. Well, here is it is. I have a bump in my neck for about 8 months. I make everything a joke, it is just how I am. I am very self depricating, anything for a laugh. Well, we always joke it is my twin coming out of my neck. At a routine visit to the doc about my allergies, I mention it in passing cuz it is really big and sometimes hard to button my top button for my tie in the mornings. Needless to say, the doc was concerned. Sent me to have a ultrasound to see if it was a boy or a girl and the doctor called me three times and I avoided the call because I was not ready to deal with what they had to say, so finally they reached me and it is no laughing matter. So, it is my lymph node .. not sore, which is a sign of something bad. They are testing me for everything..luckily no HIV - I am a gay man and that is always a possibility, especially since I have been in relationships that were not always completely safe. As much as I would like to say that I was safe every time with a boyfriend, it just didnt happen. I pride myself on being safe with most people but I have had moments with boyfriends that it just happened. But luckily it is not HIV, but now I am in the testing for Lymphoma, cancer. I will find out in a couple of weeks what exactly is going on. I have kept it a secret for a while, telling only my closest friends. Who knows what the outcome will be, but for some reason, I am calm about it mostly. Whatever happens, happens. I have delt with cancer with family members and it is an awful situation, but what can you do? If I have cancer- I will just have to deal with it. My grandmother died from cancer and I was traumatized but when it is you, you just deal with it on a day to day basis. On top of this, a new job has presented itself on the same day that the doc says that it could be cancer. So whatever happens, I think I am at peace about it. Not to be morbid, but I have lived a full life, many good times, so my life may change which sucks, so who knows what is in store, But whatever it is .. it is what it is. I am sure there will be a breakdown about it, but right now, I am dealing with it. One day at a time..

Long Time Coming

Well I am back. Lots going on the past couple of months. Work has been crazy. Working alot, but it is still not better. I have been interviewing and had a job offer, but it didnt feel right. I didnt want to get into a worse situation, so I stayed where I am for the moment. After my day today, I am really not sure I made the right decision.

Anyway, the past month has been full of work, my birthday, and that is about it. I am so lazy that I can not even make a routine out of complaining online.

Still not feeling better, but tomorrow is another day..

Decisions A' Coming

So, Here I am still fighting these crazy emotions. I used to be so social, but I honestly would rather sit at home than go anywhere.. Even if it is somewhere I would like to go. It is the weirdest emotion to deal with. I literally have to throw myself off the couch, out of the bed or out of the door. Once I go, I am usually fine- but then I rush back home. Sadly, I can relate to those people who do not leave the house for weeks or months at a time. Maybe I just feel that way because that is not an option for me. My job requires me to be ON all of the time, so hiding in my office is not an option, so when I am not at work, I do not want to be ON. I want to be lazy. Anyway, just a rambling thought as I sit here listening to music which gives me so much solice.

So my job is a struggle. It has not gotten any better. I literally am waiting to get fired which is a strange feeling for me since I usually excel at work. I really have a feeling that they will downsize and I will be the first to go since I am the newest. I was thinking about this other job that may move me closer to my hometown, then it didnt work out, but out of the blue, the opportunity has come back. My motto is always.. whatever happens is meant to be.... so my dilemma- if this job that I had ruled out comes back as a definite possibilty... do I take it? I know that running away is never an answer and I dont feel like I am running away from anything except a bad job situation. I love my friends here and know that I am lucky to have as many as I do. But the dating here sucks and is almost nonexistent, but honestly I dont think anyone could put up with my moods anyway. So I know I am jumping the gun, but I am going to see how far this job opportunity takes me, but I have a feeling that a decision is brewing.....

It's funny writing out my emotions on this site... Will I regret putting all of this out there??? HMMMMM

True Blood

So happy that True Blood is back on...................

I have missed this escapism!!!

Straight to the Bottom

So I am going through some changes. I know that they are coming soon. My new job that I accepted in January has become a nightmare. New company purchased my company and it has made things so stressful to the point that I will have an ulcer. THis is the most stressed I have been at work probably ever. I know it is not good for me, especially trying to get well. It is physically exhausting because the stress gives me headaches, tummy aches, and tense muscles. I usually can take stress, but this is a whole new level that I am not accustomed. Each month will be a fight to stay employed. It is not a fun feeling. I know I am lucky to even have a job,etc. So I try to stay positive about everything but the reality is that this new company cares nothing about the individual and only the bottom line. Being the newest there, I am the first to go I am sure. So I am proactively looking again. Searching for a new job is exhausting. I have never been fired and I dont want to start now, so I guess I should go before that happens. I have always excelled at work and this insecurity with work SUCKS. Plus there are two ladies that work with me that have families and I would rather find something new and save their jobs than have the chance that they get fired..if one of us goes, it will more than likely assure that they stay a bit longer. Anyway, just a note of something htat is on my mind today....

Love this Video

I can not explain how much fun this video is. I love the 80's and I love this song and I love that my fav, Debbie Gibson is in it. Kudos to Katy Perry for making such a cool video. I also love that she created this character who has a Twitter and Facebook page. Very smart marketing and alot of fun too.. I know you have probably already seen it, but I wanted to share.